Home life in early childhood years was abusive. Fast forward to eleven years old, I cross the street with my sister in a heavy construction zone and get blindsided by a 10-wheeler dump truck. Resulted in the amputation of both legs above the knee. I was wheelchair bound for nearly 21 years. At 14 I got involved in the world of white supremacy. At 16 I experienced my first withdrawal from voluntary drug use. At 18 I dropped out of college. By 21 I left white supremacy behind.  

 

That same year I went back to college. Fast forward to 25 and I’m off to grad school to work in the music industry. I worked in that field, specifically live entertainment with hard rock and heavy metal bands, for eight years until an $80,000 investment, a seven-year brand, and multiple companies came to their knees. I was betrayed by a business partner financially, a backstabbing “friend,” and a for-the-taking fiancé. All of this happened within three months.  

 

I was so insanely fed up with feeling shame over past mistakes. I struggled for the first half of the year until I started my own shadow work, utilizing the same methods I will use for you.​

 

I had sat on this neo-Nazi outreach idea for years. Rods and The Axe Conversations is a 7-piece exploration into my former beliefs as a neo-Nazi. I wrote the script for these videos as if I was talking to my younger, 19-year-old, self. If you chose to watch them, you’ll hear a completely unfiltered neo-Nazi response as if I was still involved. Each of these videos has a heavy racial trigger warning for a reason.​​